1. My brother is single for a few weeks while my sister-in-law is away with my nephew, so he came down to hang for a night last week. We had a great time, I very rarely get to spend any time with him when he’s actually relaxed.
2. He and I had a big discussion about vacations, and although he prefers to sit his ass on a beach or a cruise ship for seven days, I was trying to explain that my idea of a vacation is being somewhere totally different that I’ve never been before. I talked about how there is no greater moment for me than after the stress of flying and finding your way to the hotel, when you step outside into a strange neighborhood, footloose and fancy free, and set off on foot to explore a brand new city. Preferably a cobblestoned one. Even after explaining that to him, he still felt he’d rather experience the world from the deck of a cruise ship with an all-you-can-eat buffet. To each his own, I suppose.
3. People always say that their life hasn’t turned out the way they’d hoped or thought. And I realized the other day that I don’t have that problem because I’m not sure I ever gave much thought to what my life would be like. If I regret anything about being younger (who am I kidding, I regret EVERYTHING about being younger) it’s that I didn’t actually give more thought to what I might enjoy doing for the rest of my life. It’s tough to start trying to figure that out in your thirties. Lately when I look at the clock at it reads 11:11 I find myself making the wish that I would finally discover my life’s passion.
4. I really need to get back into meditation, which was made clear to me by an episode of Leonard Lopate that I listened to today. But when I think about setting aside time each day to mediate, I suppose it just feels like yet another thing that I tell myself I need to set aside time each day to do.
5. I have entirely too many goals, both large and small. I go resolution-crazy sometimes. Then I obviously can’t fit in all of these things that I want to do, so I get depressed. Then I decide maybe I should focus on ONE THING AT A TIME. You know, take the time and focus on creating one or two simple good habits. But making the decision as to which good habit you want to form feels so limiting, all I can think of is the other resolutions that I’m NOT working on. So then I start to work on those too. And then it’s too much. And then I just spend all my time checking Facebook.